Do you know what a type-A personality looks like? Always stressed, always hurried, always freaked out about one thing or another. That’s me. Or at least it used to be me. And I still fall into that habit every now & then. But it’s not how I live.
I come from a long line of worriers. I could worry about anything. I’m sure if there were awards for worrying, I would be a finalist. If you’re a worrier, you know how hard it is to live that way. Never peaceful. Never content.
The first time I tried Sivasana (the meditation at the end of each yoga class), it was just 10 minutes to worry, uninterrupted! My monkey mind was all over the place. How did these people lie still so long? Aren’t they dying to get up & do something?
Slowly, very slowly, Yoga, Pranayama (breathing) and meditation have changed all that for me. Most of the time, I can quiet my mind. Now, I’m more likely to be thinking of just one thing, instead of many things at once. I still worry, but not as often. Now, with practice, I can breathe, calm my mind, and stop freaking out. I can prioritize and accomplish my tasks in a calm and peaceful manner.
This has been another liberating aspect of yoga. Slowing down, letting go. Most of my friends and acquaintances now wouldn’t know what a type-A I used to be. I like that.